Three Word Wednesday- Miss you still
Chilly, adjective: uncomfortably cool or cold; (of a
person) feeling cold; unfriendly.
Glorious, adjective: having, worthy of, or bringing
fame or admiration; having a striking beauty or splendor that evokes feelings
of delighted admiration.
Petite, adjective: (of a woman) having a small and
attractively dainty build; small, dainty, diminutive, slight, little, tiny,
elfin, delicate, small-boned.
You were never petite
You were larger than life
It seemed, a glorious vision
Of beauty and brains
I was proud of you
Maybe a little jealous too
Of your easy way
Of grabbing all the attention
All the air in a room
You knew your own mind
Yet you felt displaced
When I come along
To add to the family
Still you took in stride
Reached out to me
Offering the big sister
Advice, demanding the accolades
Puzzled by the differences between us
The peer pressure too strong
You became a little distant and chilly
In your teen years
An island to yourself
I missed the closeness
We once had
I hoped to get it back
I cannot shoulder all the blame
Neither of us were perfect
But I walked on eggshells
And was always reaching out
Was it all one sided
Or were you just so puzzled still?
Reaching out and being rebuffed
Striving to return to days past
But it was not to be
Life got in the way
First boyfriends
Husbands, then babies
Finally time ran out
Death came too soon
Now there are only recriminations
Self-doubts and regret
Sadness when I think of you
And the relationship
We could have had
For I love you still.
©Sheilagh Lee March 25, 2015
