(This is written about a friendship that was betrayed long ago when I was young, trusting and foolish.)
Prompts:Error; noun: A mistake; the state or condition of
being wrong in conduct or judgment.
Jingle; noun: A light ringing sound such as made by metal
objects being shaken together; a short slogan, verse, or tune designed to be
easily remembered, esp. as used in advertising; verb: Make or cause to make a
light metallic ringing sound; (of writing) be full of alliteration or rhymes.
Vindicate; verb: Clear (someone) of blame or suspicion; show
or prove to be right, reasonable, or justified.
Betrayal
An error, a mistake, to take our friendship back?
To give you one last time to stab me in the back?
To let you walk all over me again,
To let me worship you as you send,
Me on errands, most futile as you rant,
To let you lord, how much more important,
You are then me, why did I let you treat me,
This way, it was so destructive, why didn’t I see,
You were using me for your own selfish ends,
Why did I allow myself to think we were friends?
I wised up and saw what you were about,
But my soft heart heard your pleas and had doubt,
It gave me no pleasure when I was vindicated,
When I saw you as you truly were, I hated
You
A worthless emotion suffocating me,
So I put it aside forgetting you and your plea,
So your words, the jingle of your ringtone,
Picked specially for you on my cellphone,
Holds nothing for me,
But empty memories,
Of how foolish was I,
To trust my heart and not my eyes
We were never friends, I have surmised,
But it took too long to find that out,
Now with others I’ll always doubt,
Are you truly my friend?
©Sheilagh Lee May 30,2012
It's the worst feeling to be betrayed by a friend. Hoewever small the wound seems to others, its gapes open, sore and bloody when we see it ourselves.
ReplyDeleteLoyalty is the best gift any friend of mine could give me. I hope your friends give you the same.
Maybe it takes as long as it takes..not too long..it's easy to know in retrospect..but a trusting heart is a gift..Jae
ReplyDeleteyes loyalty is important.
ReplyDeleteA trusting heart is important I've learned to trust again Jae Rose but I hope I am a little more cautious.
ReplyDeleteWOW! This piece really blasts the betrayer! Strong, clear direct.
ReplyDeletethank you Kim I was remembering how hurt I felt.
ReplyDeleteI know that feeling. Lately I am feeling like that for someone I care about...
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I am so sorry Guatami its hard to deal with be betrayed by a friend that way. Sometimes all you can do is turn your back on them to protect yourself.
ReplyDeleteouch, that hurts bad! my heart hopes you have friendships that overflow with everything that is good and pure....
ReplyDeletethank you piece of pie
ReplyDeleteBeautifully done. I interpreted the 'friend' in this post as a lover (which made it all the more powerful for my own experiences). Such powerful emotions portrayed in so few lines. Great job!
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thank you Mark it was someone I considered a close friend,
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